its just me

2007-04-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

i've relocated.

read me elsewhere

2007-04-13T13:29:00.000+08:00

drinking kickapoo and watching the rain melt away. had lunch alone at the coffeeshop today since dad's overseas. food over piles of magazines. i would have loved to have somebody to talk to. there's smth wrong with blogger. uploaded a fewof my fave ballet clips but its missing. speaking of which, my wednesdays do feel abit empty now. fish dives are kewl.

presently im thinking of the few reasons why i bother to work. MONEY and to make my parents happy.

drake and josh cracks me up.

" hellow. im the eeequipmt MANAGERR "

go watch it.

i wish my headache will go away!

what a mindless post. bye!

2007-04-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

on a beautiful easter sunday, bouncy bryan and i bounced our way to bata to get a pair of bata shoez. B B B B b b b b. Bee. bata shoezzz

my dad's leaving for uk on thursday. in the past i was always happy when he had overseas trips because
1. i could spend more time with my mum

2. he always buys back barbies from the uk

kids and toys. kids and icecream. kids and candyfloss. these things never fail to make kids happy.

and since he always goes to UK during the may period, he'll celebrate my bday a week earlier before ditching me. ditch!

dont knw why im blogging about this because it seems really inconsequential.

anw i think i havent been talking much to isaac of late. on sunday i happened to be asking him about mrs ng. and to my surprise, i found out she wasnt teaching him anymore. ( we sacked her hahahaha ). finally after so many freaking years, we have SACKED HER. now my bro's under his violin teacher. i think i hate piano because of her. gosh after all those years of bearing excrutiating wednesdays under her teachings. during my lastgrade in theory, i was so frustrated over learning the pile of notes that i decided to pon the exam. i ended up watching a movie. come to think about it, i never had the talent in piano. technique can be practised and learnt. not talent. . i am so glad my mum forgot about the whole episode. or i'll be cooked in chicken curry. i believe she is still living in disillusionment that im gonna complete my theory. she doenst knw yet. hahahaha.

but i must say i am glad i took my practical till the last grade. quite fun to be able to play korean hits and classical pieces. hehehe.

oh my. korea korean KIMCHI! my aunty is flying off the shanghai AGAIN. and i cant go AGAIN.
oh and some excellento newsoz. my entire mums side would be living in my area in about a months time. their houses are finally done. that is so KEWL. MY GOSH! im loving it!

2007-04-08T17:53:00.000+08:00

SOL.

waiting to get out of the house. rain is beginning the pelt, im beginning to melt. very sol nw.

ytd i was out with shanster and rachel having some awful girl time. havent seen rachel since a month ago i think? her life is full of fireworks now mans. they are by far the horniest people i've met in my entire life. i was so traumatised by them that i think i was squealing the entire day. anw i was really amused by this shop lady in fareast, in a good way. she kept throwing clothes on us and making us try them on. was so funny chatting her up in a mix of dialect and mandarin. ;p and im having this awful fetish with sneakers and pumps. saw this pair of cow canvas pumps ( or sneakers? ). it was super cute. but i didnt buy it la. i realised im becoming really good in controlling my finances of late. even tho i have a million things i wish to buy now.

and then rachel left to meet xyz. joe pea deb and hotbod joined us after. i love bakchormee.

on to sneakers. gosh. the new KEDS season is so cute! what makes it even cuter, is that mischa burton is their new spokesperson. she looks gorgeous! go check out their online catalog. www.keds.com. i've really got to get a pair of keds next month!

im starting jazz tmr. its lyrical jazz actually. think its gonna be fun! joining pam and one of her cj fren. you know i always thought being a dance instructor is such an awesome job. dance in any form. because
1. you are always on the move
2. you meet different people everyday
3. you are in touch with your hobby everyday
4. you are paid for doing something you enjoy
5. it has flexible working hours
6. its exciting and full of challenges

compared to a deskbound job, this sounds far more fun.

i love rascal so much. he might be smelly, old, balding, and temperamental. but he is just cute. i think God made animals so adorable so that people would take care of them. just like how God made babies so cute.

o rugged cross

2007-04-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

2007-04-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

grade 8 is over, so is my hobby. im not gonna take elementary classes. for now that is. how anti-climax. everything ends with 4 dances and 2 openings. it was rather messy in the morning. ms penny was angry because some students came in forgetting to do many things. i dont think it was wrong for her to flare up. everyone needs to be responsible for their ownselves instead of depending on someone else. it does puts alot of stress on the person who shoulders all the responsibility. there were a couple of grade 6 students without proper skirts, without a uniformed arrangement of ribbons or elastics. and mind you; they should be old enough to take care of these little details. apart from all these worrying students, the CC didnt prepare the examination room in advance. so it was a really messy morning. hmm. i hate it when there is tension. nd i think i screwd my last exam up. how retarded. if im lucky i'll get above 80. the pianist was so #)(*$@#)($.

responsibility. whats my responsibility as a child of God on earth?

whats my responsiblity as a daughter, a friend, a student.

so many responsibilities to be responsible to.

2007-04-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

im killing time now. aghh!

anw, happy birthday mr aston zheng long! if u still have the time to blog-hop which i know is a pasttime you detest, i still rmb your birthday! :) haha i cant help but think of gp lim whenever i think of aston. who doenst? freaking hilarious days. and also krystal, our relief bio teacher. i say she is one brave soul to not shed a tear because any girl would have died under our excrutiating nonsense.

" hi krystal "
" is your chinese name shui jin? "

HAHAHA. that was funny! AND how jane and i used to snoop outside the library hiding ***** bag. omg! i can never forget clutching my tummy till it hurt so bad.

very random. ytd i met up with turtle. she is damn bad to me. hurls abuses, insults me, demeans me.. :x and at the end of the day still tells me im her best fren. what the heck! OK anw best frens forever. i wanna race you at the swimming pool! just to see how slow i am compared to a swimmer. ( a chance to be a loser lol ) Rj people are so unfriendly. ytd i was waiting for my interview turn, and i started chatting up with the people around me. i guess i was really bored. the people whom i got to know for the slightest whiles were all from random schools and JCS, but they were friendly and approachable people.

im beginning to believe that i've becomed rather aloof over the past 2 years. ENTHUSIASM. i really lack that unless its smth im interested about. i dont think its a bad thing? neither do i think its a good thing. today shan happened to tell me how she always thought i was some emotionally-independent girl. heck-care and maybe abit aloof. lol. i found that rather amusing. n we missed rubgy 7s this year!? AGHHHHHHHH!!!! AHIHITO YAMADAAAAA

i like watching rugby even tho i dont play it well.

im going out with the brocs tmr :x. eeks i really miss them!

yawns and im so tired..

2007-04-04T21:40:00.000+08:00

despite today being the umpteenth time going to srgn cc from work, i still screwd up my directions. im really horrified with myself. there is a freaking straight bus from work to the CC. im wasting my money + time + patience squeezing with rude passengers. i really cannot understand why im so lost in singapore. seriously. is this one of my 'middle child syndromes'

but heck. i realised i needn't bother about directions anymore because today is my last day stepping into srgn cc.

2007-04-01T13:20:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna meet debs in a jiffy, waiting for my hair to dry (again). we're gonna get zznc at e same ol' place.oh yes i am currently starting on my scrapbook just that im a bit tight on cash because there are many financial commitments i have to fulfil in the month of april. scrapbooking is really fun cos i love nice pictures. (:

and one main reason for my current money diet would be for the bangkok trip. helloooow guys, who says im not excited?!?!?! here's what i dug outta my archive list, wrote it during towards the end of the As:

" ... & just as excited as i am for the HK trip, i admit im quite afraid travellling alone in hk. my uncle has been scaring me with mafia stories and all sorts : gosh, i think i might grow up to be a paranoid mother in future. please zznc, you have to protect the smallest person in the clique, and that is ME! IDEA: maybe we shld wear wrist cuffs so that we wont lose each other. HAHAHA. okay that was full of shit, but you get the entire drift, I AM FREAKED! and puhlese, im gonna set the rules. NO clubbing in that unknown place man. i dont wanna get duped or kidnapped or raped... or ... blahhh AND, return to the hotel BY 9 pm. HAHAHAHAHHAHA is that a curfew? donk. im gonna get massacred if i continue this rule-setting crap.. "

HAHAHAHA. hello the rules still STAYS!!! NO BENDING OF RULES PLEASE! maybe not the curfew thingy because i have to agree 9 pm is retarded early. what was i thinking then??!!!

lol. i cant wait to disturb the guys later at floorball. grinz.

2007-03-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

i think i shall comply to my mum's naggings and visit the doctor after 7th april. i must not let anything come my way before 070407. ytd i heard news that sheena hurt her ankle and she most probably wont be dancing for the exam. funny how unfortunate events keeps on happening year after year. im actually starting to believe there is this unspoken curse that befalls on my exam group every year. seriously, its been 3 consequtive years that we hadn't had a complete group because everyone takes turns hurting themselves. this year alone, two of my partners fell and sprained their ankles doing really random stuff. eeks. its always a sad thing whenevr a dancer injures her working leg because it will never be 'on form' again.

i must say even tho my back still hurts, going for classes never fails to make me happy! a great way to start the start of this weeekend. im gonna miss my ballet friends alot. we've been seeing each other every week for 10 years! that is freaking long. today ms penny brought elle, her 3yr old daughter to class again. she is super cute and pretty. i can just imagine her in a tumbelina costume. she looks like a daisy! ( i am insane ) hahahaha. it was hilarious to see her imitating what ms penny says. like:

Ms penny: stop being so wishy washy girls

elle: wisshy wasshy

ms penny: okay put away the barres

elle: okayy put away the barres

HAHA! seeing how loving mother&child are, im truely happy that she has decided to retire because i think her family ( and kids ) really needs her now. esp since her children are so young. being tied down by work commitments would leave very little time for her to spend time with her family. as a mother, family commitments should always hold top place. thats what i feel. having said that, i think this would be the best time to pass/end all her teaching responsibilities since we have finally reached the last grade and that we are now her only class left.

anw i dont know i should take this as an insult. this lady adamantly believed i was 16 years old.

she thought me and my mum were sisters.

she thinks i look like a high school kid.

i was drop dead bewildered.

-.-

2007-03-30T13:40:00.000+08:00

my back is hurting the worst in weeks

2007-03-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

waiting for my hair to dry. had a supper super date with leo bry pea and xinnie. i ate prawn mee with a cup of micheal jackson. whao. i really love adam road prawn mee. and old airport road wanton meee. and lor mee. i <3 old airport road. grubs!

this week: other then the disgusting chore of checking files which i absolutely abhor, work has taken a turn for the better. Janet has been nice to me so far. I'm learning excel, simple billings, scannings, and most imptly, inside infor about my dads' rivals. and some bits on financial planning. WHAO. i finally get to use some econs stuff here. but sadly, EOS is as far as it goes. Lynn was telling me how sneaky my dads' competitors can get. like hiring PI's to check on Pansing/STP. what the heck! that sounds like some trivia lah.

AND im being exposed to so many different types of magazines, i think its awesome. from fashion, to gossips, to hobbies ( which include automobiles, crocheting, smocking, pets, dancing, sports, surfing, photography, scrapbooking... everything !) to even building muscles.. HAHA.
i love reading uneducational and un-newspaperish stuff. i hate reading about global affairs. what a DITZ i am!

YAWNS. i still dont like work. i dont wanna go to work tmr. this is such a contradictory entry(:

2007-03-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

a special love for an animal

2007-03-27T22:18:00.000+08:00

a friendship that we can count on

2007-03-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

a connection and a chemistry

2007-03-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

a hobby

2007-03-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

arabesque

2007-03-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

i havent been blogging for a reason.. sometimes love is an excuse to forgive somebody without an apology. and even without the acknowledgement that i was upset by the things you said. stick and stones may break my bones, but words would never hurt me. i wonder who created that limerick? ( or isit even a limerick ? ) i strongly disagree with it. how many times have i been affected by the slightest of sentences. i have to learn to forget what i have forgiven. after all, being older means i am supposedly more matured. .and somehow, i always tend to be at the giving, compromising end. which isnt that bad :p cos i really hate argueing. never try to win an argument (:

to sum up my entire week in one sentence: work sucks. coupled with the fact im seeing my parents 24/7, its driving me insane. haha. my parents simply love to bug me everyday about my daily affairs, espcially in the morning when im half asleep and uber grouchy. hotbod and i are now facing a similar crisis okay. here goes my typical morning scenario:

dad: so what are your plans for tonight..
me: dont know
dad: who you out with ytd?
me: my fren
dad: who lah!
me: ...
dad: you are still 18. dont think you can fly. im gonna clip your wings..
me: anything lah

and then COMES ALONG MY MUM

mum: you know me and dad have been discussing, your temperament really suits medicine
me: ok lah...
mum: you shld be more open-minded about uni apps and not close doors
me: i never what
mum: so medicine or what?
me: i told you the other day ..
mum: eh i am just concerned about your life la....
me: anything..

okay these two convos can go on and on and ON ... i am SO NOT KIDDING. i am not complaining. i love my parents alot. they really crack me up sometimes.

anyhow, its deb's bday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR GIRL! you've gotta stop being so gossipy and kaypoh.. and mamasanish.

I WISH YOU ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THIS CONFUSING WORLD ok!

2007-03-19T12:58:00.000+08:00

what irritates me the most

1. people that are supposed to understand you better then the rest of them, makes comments that are so unthoughtful and insensitive. like my brother

just carry on spreading rumours and gossips about your own sister

2007-03-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

ZZNC (:

check that guy out.

hmm?

hmm!

2007-03-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

SCONES

TEA

we cant see debs

2007-03-18T12:57:00.000+08:00

debs and hotbod

while debs and hotbod were taking fooood..

sian.

dizzily happy

2007-03-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

pea get into place!

okay finally..

cheese fries

2007-03-18T12:51:00.000+08:00

hawtstuff. *squeals

failed attempt to try smth different haha!

at the art gallery

2007-03-17T11:33:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE. I AM BORED. I AM WAITING FOR FATPEA TO GET READY. I SKIPPED BALLET TODAY. I'VE GOT A SLIGHT SPRAIN ON MY RIGHT ANKLE. ALL MY MUSKLES HURT. I SLEPT FOR 5 HOURS.

HAHA HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE.

2007-03-14T12:56:00.000+08:00

to rip off from weiqi's blog:

yes! i am reminded of the day we prayed before our econs paper. seriously i knew everything will turn out fine. even after the econs paper, when you were terribly dejected, i knew things wont turn out so bad. you can check my blog history. i think i wrote a paragraph for you! lol. you were how pessimistic babe!

i even remembered days after when we went to the bishan library to enjoy some aircon, you felt that you would definitely get a C. and of cos i was being an absolutely hopeless counsellor.

see la! worry for nothing! we all got As in the end. our RJ days seem so far away mans. but i really rmb all these small schtuff. i think that is what really matters. to rmb to people and not the building.

we should always learn to cast our cares to God.

2007-03-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?And how come we're so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

MMM its always better when we're together
Look at the stars when we're together
Its always better when we're together
Yeah, its always better when we're together

And all of these moments
Just might find there way into my dreams tonight
But I know that theyll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
But tomorrow night you see
That theyll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find there way
Into my day to day scene
Ill be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll Sit beneath the mango tree

Its always better when we're together
Somewhere in between together
Its always better when we're together
Yeah, its always better when we're together
MMmmmm MMMmmmm Mmmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is no time,
And there is no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say

But I will still tell you one thing We're Better together.

2007-03-12T15:08:00.000+08:00

HI ALL.

i woke up close to 12, ate my breakfast before the teevee, and ended up watching ballet videos end on end. feeling horribly lazy now. horrible because i havent been doing anything useful for the past coupla days other then meeting up with friends and being an indecisive freak when it comes to life decisions. i tried doing some QT today but to no avail. my table is such a mess there is no area for me to do any writing. so i GAVE UP! i am really bent on getting a good devotional book when we go out tmr!

but its the march holidays! a perfect exkuse for any lazy soul to be lazy :) i know i am no longer entitled to such 'student benefits', but just let me be in my own world for the moment before i begin to work on friday!

ms penny is retiring. i am uber sad. she wrote us letters last saturday after class. when she told us to stay back after class because she had a very important announcement to make, i had this gnawing sensation at the pit of my stomach. there are just a few people in my life i admire and respect, and she happens to be one of them. i kinda felt like crying for a moment when i read the letter. tears for me growing up, tears for yesterdays, tears for this wonderful teacher-student relationship, tears for our next last 4 weeks together till the exam.. whatevr! i am not being emo here puhlese. maybe a sense of nolstagia. how to not miss someone who has seen me since i was 8 years old? that's rather difficult.

moving on, last saturday's visit to the various UNIS with zznc was absolutely exhuasting. i really hate travelling on hot days and bustling my way thru smelly crowds and seeing ex-frens who act like they know you soo well when you actually dont.. but as usual, zznc cracks me up. at the end of the day, i love to return to a familiar ground and be NORMAL. like how debs is absolutely kaypoh and hotbod is disgustingly nonchalant and how fatpea is just being irritating. ( hint hint )
it was reeeealy funny when we saw some people.... SUPER. we made a huge commotion as usual. i went into fits.

aiya main point: i love zznc. they are just irreplaceable.

i shall end here. maybe i shall make myself lemonade and be like betty who slurps lemonade on hot lazy days.

2007-03-11T14:46:00.000+08:00

whoosh!

2007-03-11T14:41:00.000+08:00

jerms, do u see yourself! rugby sevens!

2007-03-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

i miss primary school! playing 5 stones, catching, zero point, pepsicola, say-macaronee, eating 10C biskuits, being ugly together with ugly best friends, having a few minutes of fame(: i met Ms ng a few days back and she reminded me of a past which has been temporarily misplaced for the past couple of years. i am shocked by the amount of things she remembers of me. and how she still believes in me like she always did before. . anw i think i lost a part of me over the past few years. what? i dont know. maybe its self-confidence. and of course, my drive to read. i USED to be uber well-read when i was in primary school. then came sec school, and i went totally downhill. hence my GP standard.

can someone just shoot me. no matter how hard i try, i cant bring myself to read the newspapers. OH MY GOSH. i am utterly disgusted with myself.

anw its been a good week! life is beautiful! embrace it!!!

2007-03-08T15:01:00.000+08:00

im so bored i am online bumming around like mad. there are actually alot of things i have to settle by the weekend but. and there are actually alot of things im worried about. BUT. my life is full of uncertainties at the moment. God please make things right!

yesterday i made the extra effort to go to ballet class half an hour before class started to do some warmups. thinking that i'll most probably be quitting soon, i decided to absorb all the last memories i can about the studio, the class, the routine, before i move on to a new lease of life. HAHA. sometimes i am so used to routine, i am almost resistant to change. just like how i am feeling absolutely lost now becos i do not have any routine to subscribe to. it feels drop dead weird. now now, there is really no hint whatsoever that i am complaining that there is no school.

;more importantly, what i really wanted to jot down in this post is how i am trying to make an intentional effort to encourage people, in particularly, non-christians. yesterday morning before i left to meet deepa to have 'the workout of our lives' at hougang gym, i decided to write a note to encourage her regarding her A lvls results. prior to this, i knew she was rather disheartened by her grades which might not get her into medicine. anw, i was in turned encouraged by how receptive she was ( and has been always ) towards the christian faith. this has led me to think about all the times i had probably missed the door God has opened for me to evangelise.

and it has also led me to ponder on the thought that i often do not practise what i preach. what i told deepa in that letter, i must believe in it to see it pull through!

lastly, i am glad we managed to talk things out yesterday night! (: lets see how it goes from here!

2007-03-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

goodbye to ballet in one months' time

2007-03-06T10:54:00.000+08:00

i've got a thousand things on my mind. dont try to read in between the lines. i am not trying to hide messages underneath my sentences. i am just here to write some rubbish before i do my applications, and before i go out.

aiyo. this is my own blog but i cant write what i feel.

OUT!

2007-03-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

i really liked today:) from church, to sushi tei, to bubble tea with the debs, to bukit timah, to my grannys', to dinner.

i finally got down to having one long talk with my mum regarding my future decisions. it definitely took a load off my chest. just to have my parents support me in whatever i do is good enough. i am touched by how my mum is going all out to help me with the university applications. helping me with my testimonials, making appointments with her connections, researching for scholarships... i realised i should have discussed things with my parents all along instead of trying to take it all on my ownself. all the times i'd gotten super bratty whenever she/he mentioned the word- medicine.. i am sorry. anw it seems that overseas education might be an option for me after all. i know there are really alot of things that i cannot let go if i do eventually go abroad to study, but as for now, i must try to keep all options open or i will end up with nothing at hand to do.

now i must try not to be too bratty and start working real soon. in my parents office. ;//

2007-03-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

yes i was jealous but so what?

TODAY: though it was short, it was a good time with zznc! we ate at Giraffe, slacked at starbucks before deciding to go to the career fest which was undeniably overwhelming. now that we've gotten back our results, i seriously gotta get my ass back into proper action! and that is to stop being such a slcker, and to READ ALL MY UNIVERSITY APPLICATIONS. i've been wanting to do that eversince the A lvls ended but never got the energy nor determination to read them. okay just watch out guys, tiffy is back in action.

in fact, i am just about to start my intense reading tonight!

sheesh, i cannot take this worry off my mind mans. and it doesnt help when everyone i see, i meet, and even those whom i havent been talking in such a looong while, BOTHER to ask me about my future plans. i've learnt to be smart and take the easy way out, tell them: i dont know.

anw ytd was one rollercoaster ride. ok i shant do a write up on all my emotions because that is for me to know, reallly. thanks for those who were there at the moment because it helped. main point: i am fine. no perfect score wont keel me. the thing that irritates me the most is, my entire family+extended family is really kicking a big fuss because my mum went to tell everyone how ' absolutely disappointed' i was. i wasnt really in the mood for anything ytd, which explains my extremely sian-ed look during graduation service. eeks, i am sorry if i dampened the mood for anyone! and i also need to apologise for ignoring so many phonecalls/messages during the day. i can be such a nut sometimes!

OKAY!!!! AAAB!!!! on a good note, my aunt wants to take me to vietnam to shop while my uncle goes over for business! she wants to treat me to celebrate my results! hahahahaha, that is kewl.

i think i said, after friday, things wont be the same again. no trackers, absolute free time at hand, results. i am really gonna miss the Laos team dearly because i think its gonna be hard to meet up when everyone starts working and moving on. -bye!

2007-03-03T12:04:00.000+08:00

dont mess with us, we have pearl BOMBS

2007-03-03T12:00:00.000+08:00

HAHA:) a light year ago when we were in our prime years. lol

2007-03-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

its a bright and cheery morning! today terence called and gave me huuge shock over the phone. i hope nobody realizes its me in the picture because the look of my face is just too retarded for words. :\\ anw we ended up talking about results and stuff, amazing how God works in ways we cannot see. but thanks ok! ;]

2007-03-02T12:29:00.000+08:00

i feel as though i havent updated in quite a while. there are just too many things to blog about that im just about to skip all the important parts and forward to randomness.

i was telling ruth ytd that i am actually a very sentimental person just that i dont show it, or strike off to be. people who really understand are often hard to come by so i can't help it if i lurve to keep the most important things to myself or to those that know me best. i've learnt over the past 2 years that the best way for me to cope with struggles would be to,

be alone.

talk to a close friend.

and if i ever feel like talking, remember to give me a hug. more often than not, all i need is someone who listens.

haha, right! this week has been uber busy with alot of tidying up at Trackers and sorting out bday issues. more importantly, my faith in God has been challenged over the past few days. there is this issue which i cant come to terms with; and i really admire those who dare to have faith in everything they do.

i am avoiding 7-11 like plaque now. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :)))))

2007-02-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

2007-02-25T15:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday was meant to celebrate hotbod's bday but due to some complexities, we've postponed it to next week. ANYWAY, I MISS YOU GUYS. truely honestly frankly seriously basically

i met up with miss brocster and had such a lovely morning/afternoon. we just talked and walked and admitted and ate and trimmed our hairs. it was sad that we had to leave so fast because i bet we could have talked the entire day. haha, too bad shanster couldnt make it or it would up-ed the grossness by another notch. wax the brocs. and then i finally ( finally x 10000 ) met my class peeps.

one year has passed so fast, it seems like not to long ago that we went over to mr quek's house. man, i was looking at turtle's pictures and realised i am missing alot of things and people. like, my jacob's water bottle, my nuggets and our wunderful frenships. mrs quek started talking about quite depressing stuff becos we were too bored with the army talk. . which didnt bother me much. but it was thought provoking. wordly affairs. HAHA anw maybe im just freaking optimistic abt stuff and i dont knw if its a good thing. because optimistic people gets disappointed easily-

you know i used to think that frenships would remain the same or just slightly change even though the things that hold them together are no longer in existence ( like school, classes, whatever ). but now, its really wishful thinking on my part because when people start to WORK, it is difficult to find common free time. work work work work.

on to the class meeting, the guys were super hilarious with their bald heads and army stories. hamsum sia! they just went on and on and onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn about how exciting their lives are now. RIGHT. haha weilun cracked me up totally. he is so fit now, with his black specs and towering height, i realised i miss his nonsense lah. and his blog updates( right turtle!!! ) lol. together with elgin they make a dynamic DUO. okay jquek is basically the same with his huge ego. i really feel like slapping him whenever he disturbs me mans. the girls are all the SAME. weiqi and her garguantan eating habits. YUK!

to end off, i really want to post this pic on my blog. its super kute. chubby cheeeks, kute eyes, button nose, lovely expression. it is just so KUTE!

i hate writing ESSAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-22T17:14:00.000+08:00

im back early in efforts to start on our journal. im just gritting my teeth thru it mans. just felt like blogging before i begin to do smth useful for today. the weather is so hot it kills me. sigh. i had a sleepless night last night, quite affected by what pea had to say. and i was rude to my parents.

regarding my pending A lvl results, i really dont want friday to ever come. i dont think anyone truely understands whats going on in my mind. they just give thoughtless comments that makes me want to turn away. 'oh you'll do well like before' .. ' you confirm will do well '.. yadayadayada. the truth is, im really freaking out even before friday comes. this is called delayed stress, stress even after the exams. i was reading weiqi's blog about her dream, and if her dream ever comes true, i dont know what will become of me or the few of us for that matter. ( I am serious gurl ). stupid. i am trying to brace myself up for that day. drink more coffee, do more pushups, eat more rice. this reminds me of the period of time turtle had to comfort me because i felt plain ------. that was stupid. but it was real.

okay anyway, i felt sad watching this scene from one of my fave shows.

" without permission or any warning, you secretly entered my heart, you took me by surprise. Now you want to take everything back.. "then he cries. he is desperate to savage the situation. the girl is about to walk away.

WHAO. now that was really sad. i think the part where he fell in love without even being aware of himself is scary. should we just let our guards up all the time?

i enjoyed the short story Haruki Murakami wrote about, 'On seeing the 100% perfect girl one April morning'. click on it.

2007-02-21T11:33:00.000+08:00

another beautiful day. i have decided to be alone today. im going to the library with my ipod, grab a book and drink Korfee till six.

(:

2007-02-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

so the second day of cny is gone and im really in no festive mood whatsoever. To say the least, im just satisfied with the meeting up of relatives and cousins because i hadnt had the time to do so since trackers started. I didnt manage to take any photos with my mum's side, because silly me left the batteries at home. i realised that even tho we havent been meeting up in a while, i could still feel the closeness we always had by the way we talked, and understood each other without any elaboration. Ck and i desperately wanted to catch a movie. Actually it was just me. haha, i havent watched a movie since a light year, which is so depressing. hear me scream!

But whatever it is, we didnt manage to catch a movie in the end because my parents wanted to go back prepare food for the gathering at night. what a spoiler! the night turned out better than i expected. i think i got issues. mmm. my dad's side came and mahjong tables started whipping out. i think we all got entertained with my bro's shanghai umbrella which i have begun to fall in love with, and our major cam whoring at coffee bean.

today was such a terminally boring day. I was just super glad that my mum's side came over again. haha! All of us spent the night, drinking wine, popping bakhwa, attacking chicken wings, and watching korean dramas.

grins.

2007-02-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

2007-02-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

my fave photo of the night

2007-02-20T00:49:00.000+08:00

2007-02-20T00:46:00.000+08:00

taking them out for their first coffeebean experience

2007-02-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

this was rather entertaining

2007-02-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

amanda donning my ballet shoes! :P

2007-02-20T00:37:00.000+08:00

bored isaac and i, cam whoring on the first day

2007-02-18T17:55:00.000+08:00

uploading these photos are giving me a massive migraine. i just realised we took freaking lots of photos. owell HAPPY C N Y :p

2007-02-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

till we meet again!

2007-02-18T17:51:00.000+08:00

i really miss screaming at the back of the truck , letting the wind rush past my face, hearing the guys sing farny songs.

2007-02-18T17:48:00.000+08:00

i miss the truck :(

2007-02-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

neoprints/mochacino/girls and guys dozing off

2007-02-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

i love this photo. " i am gonna skewer him "

2007-02-18T17:40:00.000+08:00

clockwise from left:children/more children/our art&craft/our superduper FARNY SKIT!( so children you must wash your hands before you eat! )

2007-02-18T17:38:00.000+08:00

clockwise from left: folding hearts/leozy our Noah/saymacaroni(gosh!)/love!

2007-02-18T17:34:00.000+08:00

ARrrr!!!!

2007-02-18T17:33:00.000+08:00

i miss pii loong!

2007-02-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

to chiangmai

2007-02-17T10:46:00.000+08:00

alright i am finally back and i am in such a pensive mood. Singapore and my friends has left me behind for a while and i need time to adjust. shrugs, its almost like chasing a late train. ANYWAY, here is my favourite peom yet again. think it clearly speaks what i am feeling right now ;p

Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down today.
Nothing gold can stay.

i've got to agree for the very first time that some things aren't eternal. These things must come to an end. And now that the end has come, i must be happy with memories that would last with me even with a lapse of another 40 years.

2007-02-01T18:41:00.000+08:00

Leaving for Laos tomorrow and i cant help but feel some form of anxiety building up at the pit of my stomach. I wonder how i would be like after 15 days spent out of my luxurious house, maybe it would inspire me to be a missionary? haha, that has never crossed my mind actually, but it would be worth a shot. After all these weeks at trackers, i can safely say that my life has changed quite abit. For instance, my materialistic tendencies has not surfaced in quite a while. Maybe its because i barely have the time to let my mind wonder. and i because i definitely DO not have the means financially. I must add that i am in a very wrecked financial state now;

no income+bone-eating transport+outrageous eating habits = Broke to the max.

so the Laos trip is quite timely because i would be out of SG and that means more money from my parents!

spent this last day in Sg bumming at home & running personal errands. My day was almost absolutely perfect&peaceful before an interrupt text came and made me flee outta the house & run like there wasnt any tomorrow. haha anyway, this reminds me that my personal fitness is at an all-time-low record. Yesterday I did solo for my dance and when it ended, I totally couldnt stop panting, like a dog. That wasnt it. Today when i did the mini sprint to N-tuc, i was literally breathless. This is clear proof that my sedentary lifestyle needs to be converted manz. lazy singaporean youth here. i need help!

Something in me just doesnt want to accept that I am leaving tomorrow. Its too darn fast. OWELLO, Bon Voyage to the rest of the Trackermates who had left & would be leaving soon. And to ME, i truely need alot of strength battling dirty toilets and muddy places. will mish you guys sorely. BUAIZ

xoxo

2007-01-30T21:31:00.000+08:00

Doing bummerish stuff at home and i must say in the midst of trackers, i have not been seeing my Rj&pl friends for quite a while. Today was one of the rare occasions where i decided to check my mail and to my surprise(sadness), i saw a mail addressed to me by Mrlee, my CT teacher in Rj. In it wrote how he enjoyed all the times he had spent with the class, pointing out the very occasion 3u had specially sprung a surprise for him on his birthday during our extra math tutorial. At that very point in time, i really couldnt have guessd twice that the surprise were of much significance to him. After all, we didnt take out much effort in planning it. ( spon-tay-neous )... I guess we did make him feel special for at least once in his lifetime and i'm glad as a class, we had made his stay in Singapore a memorable one. I remember the time Mrlee messaged chengchung during lab lessons, asking the class out for a KTV session. Our general response wasnt exactly endearing.. nor receptive.. I remembered the entire class making practical jokes out of that incident in those following days after.

I think i wont be able to take that incident outta my mind because it was, the first time Mrlee took some initiative to play a more active role as our CT. yeah? Now that he is leaving back to HK for good, i cant help but feel some sense of nolstagia. All the days of b46; with him leaving, its almost like a final closure to our student life. I seriously miss days in JC where the class would rot together and be wee-tarded. Its not going to come back, somethings are never gonna be the same again.

I think i can always go on missing things. This and that, broken/unbroken/perfect/imperfect. Maybe i have the face the truth that what i hate most about life is growing up, moving on, and not ever going back.

Anyway, i have this speculation that my parents think i cant survive in Laos. ( oh please encourage me ). AH. i am so gonna miss my family when im gone for 2 weeks. and my bed. my TOILET!!! my DOG! and my luxurious life.

haha, the laos team is so wee-tarded lah. GOSH everyone has let their hair down. Please hold your horses in Laos guys because I, for one, cannot control my laughter. I so do not want to jailed. period.

2007-01-29T01:16:00.000+08:00

artfriend

2007-01-29T01:13:00.000+08:00

sailormoonbry,powerranger mayanne and mee!

2007-01-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

waiting for my hair to dry at a really unearthly hour owells; im blogging.

twas my first time at beachroad today! hotstufff. some of us went down to concourse to get items for the mission. we went totally mad at art friend making funny captions out of alphabet blocks! haha(: kewl stuff. so as you can see, char is making out her favee pet phase of all time: IM SURE LAH. and then me and bryz started making souP shruB and the asparagus.

i believe laughter is always the best medicine of our human heart.

<3

2007-01-28T19:22:00.000+08:00

2007-01-28T19:20:00.000+08:00

LAOS!

2007-01-28T19:16:00.000+08:00

2007-01-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

haha me and bryz messing up!

2007-01-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

man i must blog about today, i havent laughed this hard eversince JC ended. today was seriously absolutely funny, i was laughing till my wits end. it all started when bryz made this obnoxiously rude & LOUD burp doing morning worship. it was how RUDE and blasphemous manz. and then the giggles started coming and lasting thru out the entire day. shruB souP shruB totally cracking me up

we had skits and zhengyi finally unleashed the lion in him. he went wild dancing on stage lahhh!!! OH MY GOSH! GGXX. and then came our skit. leozy donned on the armour. with breastplates and all! OH MY GOSH!!!! bianster was how funny too. ahh. anyhow i think our laos team is so cool! i am really looking forward to the 15 days we're spending together in LAOs! praise the Lord Pea can come!

nothing is impossible thru Christ!

2007-01-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

sian, i cant post any pictures. my photo uploaded is failing me so you must bear with my sentences for now. aft trackers, i rushed down to have my haircut and- i am not satisfied.

AGHH. i think i must remind myself to stop being so adventurous, stop deciding things on-the-spot without future considerations aka being spontaneous. well as the story goes the hairdresser said i suited the BOP and since i was so SOL there and then, i decided to be totally kewl and chop my locks off. that was total insanity! my hair is freaking short now manz. and im gonna get bazooked outta ballet class tmr cos im having my exam in 2 mths time and cutting my hair short is indirectly telling ms penny i am a total NUT!

heheh i am kinda exaggerating here but who cares, i would have preferred smth longer and less wild. pfft. please tell me the truth if you see me around. and not say, ' its okayyy what'

ah i shall live with it. i am so ugly in trackers now, i am almost contemplating wearing a big shirt and shorts everyday. so having a bad haircut just seals the deal.( must prepare the laos people in advance before they see me in full blow in specs n bad clothes hahahaha right pea? ) which reminds me i am super decent in my attire nowadays compared to the past. zznc you have to vouch for that! check me out, im a conservative nut! haha i have been wearing so many shirts i hadnt worn in a light year. and they all cover my arms. and legs and everything.

see what trackers has done to me!!! rocks my brocs lah

2007-01-21T18:55:00.000+08:00

talking to weiqi the other night, telling her how im in this current state of -too many things to blog till there is nothing to write- mood. really queer right? recently, there has been so many things plodding into my tiny mind of mine. but i suppose all im thinking about, good and bad, is inconsequential to what trauma pea is facing now. let my rephrase that, the obstacle pea is facing. i think its an irony to combine surrender and hope together because both clashes. lets not get into it now, because its gonna be long if i carry on. in short, i hope faith carries her, and us together thru this trying time. (F)orsaking (A)ll (I) (T)rust (H)im.

well today i woke up with no plans at hand which i have begun to appreciate in the last 2 years. being a bum and rotting at home is topping my list of hobbies. why you might ask? im sure its obvious yes. YES i am such a bum. im postponing my hair cut for the umpteen time to next week because i am beginning to detest stepping outside my house for a few reasons but of one which is most important: transport is eating my bones. gosh i havent been doing any shopping man!

im really sorry if i havent been spending time out with you him her. personally, i can never get enough of catching up and doing basically nth but talking rubbish. oh no, am i degenerating into the lizard we pointed to, that day at the lib?

then came afternoon when i finally made an attempt to stay fit with jiale. we went gyming and my sole fell out! hahaha, i was literally souless ( sole less ). ;p catch the pun punster! nw im just basically idling my life away while waiting for kor to get ready.

2007-01-20T12:18:00.000+08:00

hi leozy, bryz and pea, i know you guys are reading this.

whao i havent had spontaneous fun in such a long while until yesterday. it all started out when leozy got the car. after supper at chomps, bryz suddenly suggested hanging out late and before we knew it, we were zipping outta gardens heading to the east. spontaneous is the name of fun. woohoo. a pity level four couldnt turn up or i bet it would have up-ed the humour by 50%. after taking eons to decide where we shld head ( since the only night life person among us was leozy ), we settled for pasirris park which was really quite a silly idea. we barely stayed there for 2 hours until we decided to head back to my place because the place was swarming with beasty mosquitoes, and weird people.

and i think it was a bad idea to come my place because my PRIVACY WAS TOTALLY INVADED. not funny man, now i dont even have personal space because the two guys know what i do online and which blogs i surf and what music i listen to! GGXX. please ah, C.O.T. i am a high 'i' so i trsut you guys okay! actually i dont even think its an option to trust them because i have to. because they didnt even ask me permission to touch my things! ggxx like mad lah

to sum up my friday, we spent a grand total of 21 hours straight together. and half the time we were laughing at munster manz. freaking hilarious . whooooooooo!

2007-01-16T21:46:00.000+08:00

whats forever for? when the love i see that goes around is so freaking cheap. careless words and unkept promises. all being thrown around.

who needs love anyway

2007-01-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

some snapshots with my dad's employees in msia

2007-01-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

my dad and kor on the flying fox and right rope. freaking hilarious

2007-01-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

pangkor island, me and fatty isaac

2007-01-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

raindrops are falling on my head

i am really glad i can spend sometime alone at home tomorrow, it is such a bliss(; rushed the guys back home but now i am still not sleeping. i hope i dont suffer another night of insomnia because the weariness is really starting to kick in. sleeping for 6 hours in 6 days straight is no joke! nowadays i've been bogging myself down with TRACKERS, and i must admit all the excitement is starting to wear off. period. was talking to charis and charlene about it and i am glad that they feel the same way too.

anw, i am really hooked to I'm Yours by Jason Mraz. it gives me the heebyjeebies manz!!! HAHA

2007-01-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

clockwise from left: myspace, the girls!!!, campgroupphoto

2007-01-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

back from my ballet class and im freaking TIRED. i hardly have energy left to move my feet downstairs to feed myself..

anw just an update about trackers, i led worship on monday and boy, was it a nerve wrecking experience. initially i wasnt that freaked out until i held the mic waiting for leonard to play the intro. and then i realised i had to give an opening prayer. dot dot dot. and then being a perfectionist, i started worrying about:

1. what if i go offkey( which i did lol )
2. what if i cant pray properly
3. what if people dont sing
4. blahblah

i am sure all those who know me well know that worship leading is so not my THANG. lol dont laugh SHANRU! but whatever lah, i just wanted to challenge myself since this is what trackers was all about, stepping outta our comfort zone and having faith. anw, i am just happy with myself that i was bold enough to try and give it a shot. even tho it wasnt that great, i am certain as long as my heart is right, God will appreciate whatever i had to offer on monday.

with that, i also wanna say that i am really encouraged by all those who messaged me.and of cos my guitarist leo, and pea&bryan for supporting me! woohoo. and the rest of the trackers mates who gave me encouragement too!!!

sian, sometimes i need more time to spend with more people. i am currently facing a time-shortage now. can i buy some from you?

2007-01-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

beans!

2007-01-01T22:19:00.001+08:00

i finally learnt how to use my ipod as an external hard disc, haha, hilda please dont scold me! check out all my lost pictures above!

2006 has gone and with it a new year has begun. i really enjoyed myself with zznc spending the eve and new year's day together.. nothing beats ushering the new year in church with your closest friends & closing it with our infamous stayover. i have not been seeing them in quite a while and i must admit,their presence was missed during the period when we were all flying out of town. before i met them yesterday, i had to attend my family reunion dinner and i was reminded again by my conversation with my cousins how blessed am i to have zznc in my life. i must remind YOU GUYS that we have certainly come a loong way since primary school& secondary school. its remarkably 6 years and counting, so here's a mini shoutout to my 3 BUDDIES who will definitely stick with me for life:

specifically and in no order-

DEB
! more mats to clean up the WET toilet floor
! a cure to rid you of your sinus
! another maid to take care of your two brothers

PEA
! more storage space in your house
! more participation
! less bullies
! a FRYING PAN
! permission to fry
! another kitchen

HILDA
! less SPACE in your house
! lesser usage of the word 'freaking' and 'asshole'
! more enthusiasm in engaging in our occasional cooking activities
! more meat

and all of us-
! God's WAY
! Happiness
! Direction
! Family warmth
! Health
! Prosperity
! more meetings & proper stayovers
& lastly but of least importance, more money to fund all our outings!

2007-01-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

at cosmopolitan

2007-01-01T15:07:00.000+08:00

hello! blogging from hotbod's house. spent the new year eating prata with zznc and some of the guys from dragonbabies. anw, since this is the start of the new year, i wanna make the first new year resolution! hear all, i want to get to know GOAT!

extra extra! read all about it!!
-comments from the rest of zznc-
hilda: tiffany tan sucks~~!
pea: let's get out of here...
deb: *speechless.

2006-12-31T02:13:00.000+08:00

as we approach the end of 2006, let us rmb those who made this year so much more bearable-
more than what i had prayed or asked for.

stuck in reverse

2006-12-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

frenz forevazzz ( haha;))

2006-12-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

my skinny self, GAWK!!!

2006-12-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

i know this might sound abit strange, but i am thinking of getting a sewing machine for the new year.

when i was in primary school, i used to occupy most of my free time sewing, learning different embriodery stitches from books my parents brought home from their office, and making small dresses for my barbies. bullion knots were best because they are versatile and can work on any fabric.

on retrospect, i wished i hadnt lost such a wonderful hobby.

the only hurdle now thats stopping me from fulfilling one of my childhood dreams, are my parents. how do i blind them into getting me a sewing machine?

as more rainy days beckon, i've gotten myself a few novels over the last few days to keep me in the house(; anw guys, you have to give me 3 claps. i've been reading the newspapers ( inclusive of straits times ) faithfully eversince i came back from pangkor island. i think i am almost a changed person. im nearing.

2006-12-28T18:09:00.000+08:00

a tribute to my favourite breed: goldenretrievers

2006-12-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

we went to pay shan a surprise visit today, rocked my brocks.
haha, its days like these that lengthen our lives by another 10 years.

i cant wait to usher the new year! WHOOPEEEEEE!

2006-12-26T03:17:00.000+08:00

boy, im finally back from pangkor island. its about 3 20am now, im giving myself till 3 45am to blog before i hit the sack.

what can i say? i really had a great time fooling around and relaxing. i think the whole idea of leaving this 'hellhole' to an offshore island is to get away from city hustle bustle and enjoy nature's very own gifts. so despite the disgustingly long journey, the moment we saw the white sand and blue waters, everything paid off. during the 4 day trip, i managed to finish the novel i bought by Haruki Murakami, get myself a lobster tan unconsiously while digging for corals and hermit crabs with isaac, and engage myself in some sports in efforts to get myself fit for the new year. the trip wasnt meant to be a family holiday kinda thing, but a staff retreat my dad had planned for his company. so we had all the team bonding games planned out, which included OBS stuffs like flying fox, absailing.. etc etc.

my dad and my elder bro went up on the tight rope thingy. caught them on camera and video and it was super HILARIOUS! AH! the company was laughing their asses off! chicken macaroons lahhhh. then me and isaac did the flying fox! i was shit scared manzzz, but the feeling of sailing down trees was just priceless. on sunday i was forced to do the jungle trek with my dad isaac and his staff and i was super sulky about it! YUK! the slope was freaking steep manz. we had to use a rope to help us go up and down! not to mention, there were so many thorns poking out from everywhere i felt that i was in a supermario game. but that wasnt the worst part, we had to raft ourselves back to shore which was amazingly 'near' . i think i complained so much till my dad gave up and told me to sit in the middle of the raft so that i didnt need to paddle! and isaac was behaving like some macho shit! he sucks!!! hehehehehe

hey man, at least i became the motor of our boat. and guess what, we came in ... LAST! hahahahaha woohooooo.

was really blessed with fantastic weather when i was there. we were quite worried the entire trip would be spoilt by the weather since JB and kotatinggi had reports of floodings. but guess what! it was super sunny at pangkor island!

ah anw, had a fun christmas! so to all those i couldnt reply becos i was away, MERRY CHRISTMAS!

life is rocking my brocks;)

2006-12-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

ah anw, a shoutout to SHAN&BEANPOLE! TODAY ROCKED MY BROCS!
HAHA! MEGALOL!

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
Ev'rywhere you go
Take a look in the five-and-ten,
Glistening once again
With candy canes and silver lanes aglow

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
Toys in ev'ry store
But the prettiest sight to see
is the holly that will be
On your own front door

A pair of hopalong boots and a pistol that shoots
Is the wish of Barney and Ben
Dolls that will talk and will go for a walk
Is the hope of Janice and Jen
And Mom and Dad can hardly wait for school to start again

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
Ev'rywhere you go
There's a tree in the Grand Hotel,
One in the park as well
The sturdy kind that doesn't mind the snow

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
Soon the bells will start
And the thing that will make them ring
Is the carol that you sing
Right within your heart

middle children

2006-12-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

i was telling somebody about how sad middle children are: neither here nor there, taking only the leftover love from the parent, confused, low self esteem, the least academically inclined of the family, unsuccessful, attention craving, slightly rebellious, uncared and neglected.

2006-12-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

;and all the dreams of children, once lost would all be found

2006-12-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

spent the day with sherman doing some christmas shopping and catching a movie. curse of the golden flower was such a disappointment, the only thing that made up for the stupid plot was jaychou. then i met jiale, weiqi and jane! weiqi cracks me up ALL THE TIME. yesterday pea & i were about to go fukhai house to play board games but then it started pouring. let me rephrase that, the rain merely got heavier. i was rather entertained by the toys at uncle David's office. i was shrieking when my planet landed at saturn, and when i shouted ' saturn ', it came out as satan. -what.a.thing.to.say.in.church. now i am missing camp quite abit. haha, i really miss dorothy, and the rest of the girls, really blessed to have got to know them better. but i was just wondering how hard it is to meet up with them after camp ( despite us making vows we will keep in touch ) because everybody is all over.

oh wellz, i think this is gonna be a great christmas! i spent a huge fortune on presents but i guess the essence of christmas is always about giving and not receiving ;)

tmr's my aunt's bday celebration! im gonna spend another bomb on her so there goes my savings.

happy holidays guys!

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yeah i am finally back in Singapore. ;) but i'll be leaving again on Friday so these few days in between would be rushing to write essays, interview and meeting up with some of my friends before i leave to celebrate christmas overseas. that definitely doenst leave me with much time!

The first thing i wanted to do this morning after i woke up frm such a beautiful slumber was to thank all those who forced me to go to camp, impacted my life during camp and of cos for God's great presence everyday. Campsite was a far cry from last year's hotel. but i enjoyed this year's so much more, and i hope that any camp committee member who reads my blog would be encouraged because i felt their hardwork paid off!

i was part of the oldies group, me and dorothy were the youngest there and also the only females who were involved in games. i am really glad i was placed in that group becos i got to know so many people i didnt knw before or saw ard before but never had the chance to get to know them personally! additionally, everyone were at least 2 years older than me&dots so they were so much more matured in their thinking & that helped me alot in some of my conflicts. there was sharon and serene whom are really nice and lovely sisters, david tay!, kevyn li!, uncle james!, brandonlow!( whom i know lahh ), edwin!, Eugene heng!, Samuel wong! and the 3 Ps. pastor david, pastor B and pastor peterkoh. i truely enjoyed every sharing session and time of fellowship.

i had went for camp thinking that me and pea would be terribly lonely because all our good frens werent going but NO, i think i was super entertained thru out camp. and it also helped me to get to know dorothy so much more which is so coool! i must add that uncle james and fukhai cracked me up like mad thru out camp! they were hilraious!!! presntly, i was also touched in many ways and am much clearer of my future decisions right now.

cant wait to share with you guys the photos we took which is in kevyn's cam! really missing waking up to a smelly toilet and damp floor. ;p SIGH

i wished yesterday lasted forever